If you've never played
it, Freecell is a form of solitaire, except all the cards are spread out, face
up, in vertical columns. You have four open "cells" at the top, which
are used to shift cards around. The goal is the same as solitaire - untangle
all 52 cards and pile them up by suit and number, in order.
It’s also a pretty
powerful spiritual practice.
Freecell is teaching me to work with what I have in front of
me. The game has many moves, some of which seem like progress, and some that
seem like backtracking. It’s not linear. I cannot simply do what I’d like to
do. The card I want is buried beneath three cards for which I have no use. I
have to deal with a chaotic and seemingly arbitrary jumble. Each tiny step
leading me further along my circuitous route…just like life.
Just like real life, there are no jokers, no get out of jail
free cards. There’s just raw material and a little bit of wiggle room. You have
to shift it around until the chaos is transformed into order. If you fail?
That’s it…or you can hit retry. That too, might be like real life, but none of
us really know that answer. But back
to Freecell.
The game has a certain flow, yet it’s also balanced by
longer termed strategy than simply putting a card anywhere it can fit. Looking ahead a few moves,
that’s the key. But then, one can easily overbalance in this direction and take
on too much. Unbridled ambition doesn’t work in Freecell. It tends to just eat
up your free cells and leave you a crucial one
move away from perfection.
It’s also showing me how it doesn’t matter if I can see
where my step will land. The most unlikely moves can sometimes lead to the most
brilliant streak of flowing, easy scores. It seems like such a bad idea, but I
have to do something. So I take a chance…and then, eureka!
Freecell reveals my blind spots. I never knew it, but
sometimes I am dyslexic with numbers or colors. I think I'm seeing clearly, but
the reality is different. How like life, how like Yoga!
Sidebar: a Yoga teacher I studied with recently told me that asana
(yoga poses) reveals imbalance and asana corrects imbalance.
Koans everywhere!
Anyhoo. I find that I make a lot of mistakes. I think I’m on
a roll, maybe I’m just a wee bit too
excited about that fact and BOOM! Saw the color wrong, went too fast or
overlooked one crucial thing. At other times, frustration will lead me to act recklessly.
I also find that I’m capable of some brilliant flow. I get into a fugue state and it becomes effortless. One move leads to the next in a harmonious rhythm. It feels the same as when I'm in an altered state creating artwork, when my martial arts mojo is strong or when I'm paddling well on a river. Flow is a whole other topic…I'll write more about that later.
To sum up, it's helping me:
- Use what I have.
- Take one step at a time.
- Look a few moves ahead.
- Balance effort and non-effort.
- Learn from blind spots.
- Flow.
- Trust.
Lately, things have been tumultuous in my life. There is a lot of intensive transformation going on. I have been playing a lot of Freecell, and I've been taking a lot of steps to manifest my dreams.
Give it a try, and as always, tell me about your experience! Are there any mundane seeming things you use as a spiritual practice?
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